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As the new year comes upon us — it seems to be a time to reflect on the previous year and evaluate the successes, worries, mistakes, losses, relationships… I could reflect on the year with a negative view. So many trying and stressful moments – you just need to read my archived posts. I have had moments of sheer anger and frustration – it has not all been positive for me. However, I think if I let the sadness and worry take up too much of my mind and heart, I would fall apart. I have learned that looking for the sparkle of goodness in trying times helps shed the hope that is needed to get through. Some may call it having rose coloured glasses or being naïve – but I would much rather be that then having resentment and bitterness.
As I venture into 2014 I think of the amazing daughter’s that I have. Their strength, ability to adapt, courage, and resilience has astounded me. How can I complain about anything when I see the way they cope everyday with pain and illness? Their laughter during rough times is like music to me….they see the good and funny even when times are very hard. They are truly blessings and I am so proud to be their mother.
I also think about the amazing community I live in — strangers, friends, students, families, colleagues, family all finding ways to support and help us — no matter how many times we seem to be in crisis people do not give up on us. I reflected long and hard worried about my pride but willingly opened up to receiving help – and the strength, support, and love I felt towards the number of people who have given to my family overwhelms me. I am so grateful and appreciative.
Some have told me that I should be so mad about the last year and that I must be waiting for the new year and things to change. I don’t…I live each day appreciating it for what it is, what I can learn, and how I can be more kind, caring, and giving. Happy New Year…look for the sparkles of goodness in each moment.
(I will be starting to update the blog more frequently as Ryleigh soon begins the process of her stem cell transplant!)